Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Preparation

God is looking down at me laughing right now, and shakig his head at me saying, "Becca, just you wait. You have no idea what I have in store for you. Quit worrying about things. I have everything planned out for you and you will be amazed. Prepare to have your socks knocked off!"

so here I am. PREPARING myself to have my socks knocked off. trying to have as much coffee and fun as possible along the way.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Unwrapped

I think somewhere between my school work, dedication to commitments, and going on a couple of dates I have become unwrapped.

Never have I been so stunned and disappointed at how far I feel I have drifted off of my spiritual and failthful path of walking with my Lord, Jesus.

I want to be unshakable, yet vulnerable. Strong but able to depend on others. Independent but trusting.

I think maintaining balance is one of the million keys to my happiness. It's so delicate. I'm not one to be over-dramatic so I'm not trying to blow things out of proportion. It doesn't take much to throw off the balance and send me in a downward spiral looking for something besides to hold on to and I like to believe I'm not the only one.

The point is that Becca needs to get her buh-donk in gear and wrap herself in Christ again so tightly that the guy of my dreams will have to seek first His kingdom to see me.

I know it's easier said than done, but it's possible and it's happening. I just needed to type this out in black and white to remind myself that it's a permanent change.

I still need to work on ME, so that one day...Lord willing, and I promise not to rush it, I can be a part of a wonderful WE.

I promise not to doubt myself and the things I have going for me. I'm not "The Perfect Woman" but I am a pretty cool, classy young lady with some talent planted by God himself, who happens to think that she'll be a good catch some day if she can re-establish the spiritual stability I once had, and will have again.

"Wait on the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord." -Psalm 27:14

Let's be real. I'm not wrapped up in Christ like I want to be. What do you want?

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." -Phil 4:6